Hating It, But Loving It All At The Same Time

I hate that Jeremy and Alexa are in Florida and I am stuck home working all week. I hate that I come home to an empty house. I miss them soooo much. I cannot wait till they come home. On the other hand, I am loving the fact that I can come and go as I please. I don't have to wait for Jeremy to get home so I can run to the store real quick or having to wake up at 5 in the morning to feed Alexa.

They are having a great time down there. Jeremy was thinking about coming home early because he thought it was too hot for Alexa, but said she is doing extremely well. He took her out to the ocean and she cried because it was too cold. I hate that I am missing my daughter's first beach experience, but we will be taking a mother-daughter trip in July. We are going up to CT to visit my parents. I am extremely excited about that. My parents cannot wait to see her!

This past Saturday, I went to a fair with a friend. At the fair, there were tons of booths that sold personalized baby stuff. I bought a canvas with Alexa's name painted on it for her front door; a butterfly with two ribbons hanging from the wings for her hair bows, also with her name painted on it; a pink growth chart; a puzzle that spells out Alexa so that we can teach her how to spell her name; and a onesie that reads "Handmade By God". I can't wait till Jeremy gets home so that he can hang up all that stuff for me.

Hope everyone had a great Monday!

All By Myself

Tomorrow Jeremy is taking Alexa with him on a trip to Florida with his mom and stepdad. I can't go since I am taking a week off in July to go visit my parents, so I will be all alone without the both of them until next Saturday. I don't know what I am going to do with myself. I guess just relax and catch up on sleeping. I have been extremely busy. I switched positions at work and this job demands a lot of time. I am more busy than I have ever been. I feel like I don't ever have time anymore to just sit and enjoy a minute to myself. I've either got laundry to do, dinner to cook, Alexa to feed, homework to do, the list never ends. I feel like it is all catching up to me and it is kicking me in the ass.

This Saturday I am going to a fair with a friend. They sell personalized stuff and I plan on getting some things for Alexa's room. I can't wait. It's going to be fun. Alexa has started on rice cereal and it's going well. She has been drooling like a mad baby, so maybe she is going to start teething. I can't believe she is already five months old. She is growing up so fast. Anyway, I thought I'd drop a line, but I really need to get some sleep. Until next time.

How Rude!

Sometimes I don't understand why people say the things they say. I don't understand why people think they can say incredibility rude things to people they don't know. My friend and I went out to lunch yesterday. While we are being sitted, two older woman who were sitting at a table next to us turns around and looks at Alexa. They keep looking at her and smiling. As they are getting up to leave, one of them comes up to me and asks me if she can gawk at my baby. I said sure. She has the audacity to say you must starve her. She is dwindling down to nothing. I was astonished!!! Before I can get a word in, she says she is a beautiful baby and walks away. I am not quite sure if I heard her correctly because the restaurant was so loud. However, my friend says, did she say what I think she said? So I guess I did hear correctly. The nerve of some people!

Anyway, after lunch, we head on over to the mall and while we were in Williams Sonoma, a lady asks if she can see Alexa. So I said sure and she looks into the stroller and says she's beautiful. Then she says to Alexa, you don't miss a meal do you? On a normal day, that would be a bit offending. Are you calling my baby a fatty? But this day I proceeded to thank her and told her what the other lady said. She commented on how rude people can be. I mean Alexa is four months old and weighs 13 lbs. My goodness. I think that she is very healthy. Anyway, even though it's not true and I don't starve my baby, that lady made me feel horrible. It made me question whether I'm a good mom and if people view me that way. I don't understand why people don't think before they speak.

Where Have You Been...Not That I Missed You

After three pregnancy tests and a checkup at the gyno to make sure I was alright, I finally got my cycle! I got it Friday night. I was so relieved to have gotten it! I went to the gyno last Tuesday to make sure I was okay, and the doctor gave me birth control pills to start my cycle. Well, I decided to hold off on them till Sunday and take goodness I did because I got it Friday. I really did not want to start the pill until I got my first cycle just to make sure they will going to work. I've always heard that you have to take it the Sunday after your cycle, but the doctor assured me that is not THE rule. But it doesn't matter because I feel like a woman again...LOL.

My precious Alexa is growing up. The pediatrician told me that I need to start her on a little bit of cereal. And to also give her a sippy cup just to experiment with. I probably won't start any of that until she is about five months though. She still acts like a newborn newborn, so I don't know if she is ready for all that...or maybe I'm just not ready =)

Hope everyone is having a great Monday and a great rest of the week!