Tuesday, April 18, 2006

Discovery

Have you ever discovered something about yourself that you didn't before? I've discovered that before I was pregnant, I was actually in good shape. I used to complain that I was fat, maybe I could have lost a couple of pounds, but I didn't look that bad. Now that I am 20 lbs. over my pre-pregnancy weight, I am looking back at my pre-pregnancy weight and thinking that is bikini material (well maybe a tankini). I look through my clothes everyday and think wow, I once fit into these....I will never again.

Being the weight I am now is very uncomfortable. I have rolls in places I never knew could have rolls and I don't move around as freely as I used to. This might sound all crazy to you, even to me. I mean it's not like I weigh 400 lbs., but this body is very different from what I am used to. I have been working out, but my next challenge is eating right and saying no to chinese food (my favorite). I hope to be back to my pre-pregnancy weight, but by that time comes, we will be ready for our next child. Then all that hard work just down the drain. But every time I look at Alexa and her sweet innocent face, I just realize that it's all worth it. I guess I'll just have to exercise for the rest of my life.

9 comments:

eyes_only4him said...

oh honey..i feel the pain your in..

i have had three kids, and no longer fot into a size 6..its more like a 12 these days..

but dont let it get ya down, your baby is still small, so dont think you should be fitting in your old clothes..give yourself about 10 years..

i just recently kicked my workouts up a notch and have dropped about 10 pounds in the last month..i cant do weight watchers or dieting..i just have to work off what i eat..its that simple, i am not disiplined enough for that crap..heehee:)

Tammy Williams said...

I hear ya! I have been cautious about my weight my entire life. I am 18 wks pregnant now and have never weighed so much before. It's getting discouraging....but I know that it's all for baby. I don't have a problem working-out or eating healthy, but I still fear that it will take a LONG time after the baby is born to get back to normal. Why can't we all just bounce back right after birth...sheesh!
Good Luck to you!

Zoe said...

Oh I hate that!! I always worry that someday I will look back at the weight that I am now and wish that I was this weight again!! I do WW after my kids are born and it really works . . . I am keeping my fingers crossed because I think that I did a lot of damage this pregnancy!! He he.

Kendra Lynn said...

Hey there.
Its hard to get back to your pre-prego weight...trust me...I know.
But you can do it.
I am trying to do it, too.
I want to lost 30 lbs....that would bring me back to my pre-wedding weight. LOL
Its a far off goal right now, but I'm trying...you can do! :)
Keep the faith.

Kendra

Tina M said...

I look back to when I thought I was fat. HA, who was I kidding?? I looked great. Now even my fat rolls have fat rolls!! UGG!

Don't worry honey. You are young and will bounce back. I'm sure of it!

Choppzs said...

I know what you mean too about the looking back thing. I look back when I thought I was fat and now I think that I looked damn good. So far for me, each kid has gotten easier. With weight I mean. With Olivia I gained about 50 pounds and have NEVER been able to lose it. With Zachary, I was able to loose the prego weight within a couple weeks and with Seth, I lost it almost immediately. But I have never been down to what I was before Olivia. I too feel the same way. The extra weight makes me very uncomfortable. I always want to smack those woman that go back down to a size 2 after their kids. lol. I try to tell myself that as soon as I know I am done having children, I am going to really lose all the weight and get back down to a size 6. I wont even discuss what size I am now!! lol I also try to tell myself that it's only been not even 3 months since Seth and I have time to try and lose more weight. I really have to train myself with the food and exercise part. I am really lazy!! I feel you and know that you aren't the only woman that has ever felt that way. There are allot of us out here that have gone through it and well...are continuing to go through it. I went to Linda's site and found that she is starting a lose weight blog and it sounds like a good idea to journal about food and exercise and the feelings that go along with it!! I think I will try!! Good luck girl, feel free to vent when need be!

Wendy aka Cheeky said...

I understand your pain - it took me the longest time after baby #1 and then as soon as I started looking good again baby #2 came and its been 7 years and I am still struggling (not to discourage you). In the end, its all worth it and I would do it all again.

Linda said...

I totally feel where you are coming from, except mine really wasn't baby weight, it is weight I have carried all of my life.

Like Heather said, I did just start a blog today. I am really hoping it will help me keep the motivation going in order to lose this weight I desperately need to lose. It really is a matter of health issues for me. I don't have any right now, but if I am not careful I will.

Good Luck with your weight loss. We are here to help you along the way. I think having a support system like this can really help.

Me said...

I was very uncomfortable with my size after Grace came too, but once she became more mobile, I became more mobile and weight slowly came off. I didn't go on any regime at all. I just chalk it up to coffee and lots of baby exercise. Just wait, once Alexa gets mobile and you're chasing her around, you'll be getting more exercise than ever before!!! Not to mention you can use her for weight training :) Trust me, that works!!

I know i want more kids too, but I don't wanna gain all that weight again. It's a sacrifice we gotta make I suppose.

Chin up, keep smiling and whenever you feel down, just look at little Alexa and know she was soooo worth it all :)