30 Weeks

I can't believe I am 30 weeks. Time has just flown by. I can't believe in less than 3 months, I will be a mom. Kind of scary if you ask me. But we're both very excited!

I had my 30 week appointment yesterday. Doctor said everything looks perfect. My mom plans on flying down February 3 through February 12, so I asked the doctor if maybe I can be induced and she said she can't make any promises and we will just have to see how baby and I are doing when it gets closer to the time. I talked to Jeremy about it last night and he's not too happy with me getting induced. He thinks I'm playing God and deciding our daughter's birthday. Maybe I'll just have my mom come down the week after, just in case I am overdue, which is the case for most first time mothers. Besides, I do want to go into labor naturally.

I've been an emotional wreck lately. I don't know why, but I cry over EVERYTHING. I mostly feel insecure and unattractive. Jeremy and I haven't been intimate in forever and he says it's because he doesn't want to hurt the baby, but I guess my hormones are telling me something different. I hope this all passes because I hate feeling this way. Sometimes I feel so selfish for the way I feel. I should be grateful for having Jeremy in my life and not letting a lack of intimacy play with my emotions. I hope after Alexa is here, everything will be normal again.

The Nursery

As promised, here are some pictures of the nursery. I am very proud of it because everything was done ourselves. Putting up the trim, painting, putting together the furniture. It took a lot of late nights after work, but finally it's complete and we are so in love with it.

Truly Blessed

Ever since I became pregnant, I've realized how lucky I am. I've had an easy pregnancy so far with no complications, a husband who adores me and his unborn child, and a family that has been kind and supportive throughout this whole journey. I thank God everyday for truly blessing us with wonderful friends and family.

Moving down here on my own has been difficult. It can get lonely and very depressing, especially during the holidays. However, Jeremy's family has taken me in and has treated me like one of their own. It really touches me to know how much they care for me. The reason for this entry is because my two sister-in-laws, Taylor and Alea, and my two good friends, Nicole and Kris Anne, threw me a baby shower this past Saturday. Everything was beautiful and it was just a perfect day. I couldn't have asked for anything more.

Their thoughtfulness, hard work, and generosity really touched me in a way that I cannot explain. I cannot explain into words how much it means to me that they have gone through all that trouble to make that day so special for me. I cannot thank them enough for really making me and Alexa feel special. Thinking about it brings tears to my eyes because I just cannot believe how thoughtful they were to have put all that together just for me. I am truly blessed.

Official

Okay folks, it's official. We have finally come up with a full name for our angel. Her name will be Alexa Leigh Bottoms. I have been waiting a while for my mom to come up with a middle name. I really wanted her to have a Korean name, but my mom just could not come up with anything that flowed well with Alexa. So going with my original middle name, I told my mom that I will just name her Lee, since that is my mother's maiden name. However, she informed me that in the Korean custom, you can only use the last name as the middle name only if it's the father's last name. Therefore, she told me I couldn't spell it Lee, so I decided to spell it Leigh. What does everyone think?

We really like it. I think it flows well and sounds really pretty. So there we have it folks. She finally has an identity!

Bored

So here I am at work, bored to death. I really do hate my job. I work as a file clerk at a law firm and there is not much to do, so the majority of my time is spent on the internet just searching useless things. Once Alexa is here, I am going to start looking for another job. I like to be kept busy so that the time flies by, but here I am busy probably an hour of my eight hour shift. It really sucks.

I started reading again. I just finished a book called Dress Your Family in Corduroys and Blue Jeans. My neighbor lent it to me and I finished it in two days. It's funny, but not as funny as my neighbor made it out to be. Now I'm starting True Believer by Nicholas Sparks (I'm sure you've read that one Taylor). I'm only on Chapter 2, but I love his books, so I'm sure I'll love this one.

Jeremy and I are trying to buy a new car. We looking at SUV's because they are safer once Alexa is born. Surprisingly, insurance will not increase all that much if we go from my Civic to a bigger car. The problem is the monthly payment. I really don't want anything more than what I am paying now. I know that's unrealistic since SUV's cost a lot more than my Civic, but my neighbor works for Lou Sobh Chevrolet and he is looking to get us a great deal. We test drove an Envoy Denali last weekend and I absolutely love it. We've been working with our neighbor all this week to see what he can do for us to make our monthly payments a little cheaper than what they quoted us last weekend. If it can't be what we want, then we might just go to the lower end of an Envoy. The Denali's are the top of the line ones and I don't think we really need that one, I just really want that one...LOL.

Anyway, that's what's been going on in my life. I know, boring. No further news about Alexa. She's doing great. Jeremy got to feel her move last week. He's been feeling her kick for the past couple weeks, but last week he got to feel her actually move. He said it feels like a wave rolling in, which it does. We're both so excited about the birth. I can't wait. I will post pictures soon once Jeremy caulks the trim and touches up the walls, I promise.