Why Me

We have 9 days until the wedding and I have a broken blood vessel in my left eye, which has caused the white of my eye to turn bloody red. How nice. Just my luck. I am into my second trimester, and even though my morning/afternoon/night sickness went down a level, it hasn't totally disappeared. I guess from throwing up, I have put too much strain on my eye, at least that's what the doctor told me. I asked if he could prescribe some drops, but he said it's pointless. It'll just have to heal on its own. How lovely. I am still holding onto some hope though because the doctor told me it should take about 7-10 days for it to heal. I have 9 days. Let's see how it looks then. He said it should eventually turn brown and then yellow, so as long as it's in its yellow stage by the wedding, I should be happy. But I'm sure if it's not, the photographer can work some magic.

Well, the wedding plans are coming along great. We have everything planned, except for a few minor details. We are still trying to convince the preacher to move the communion table. For those of you who don't know the dilemma, the communion table is HUGE. It's a pretty small Church, so the stage is not up high. Standing on the stage, behind the communion table, makes it hard for people to see me and doesn't allow the photographer to take a picture of my entire dress. The communion table covers almost half of my dress. I mean, it's a pretty huge table. Well, the preacher at first said we can move it, then decided to change his mind and said it will take the symbolism out of worship. I can totally understand his view, but it's not like we are going to get rid of it altogether. Just push it to the side. We still intend on using it, for our unity candle. We'll see though.

Has anyone experienced this. People will be so nice to you, when you are only shopping around, and when they finally get your business, they turn into a witch! The restaurant we are having the reception at, Modavi Restaurant, the staff is really friendly. Especially Sonya, who coordinates receptions. Well, after we got her business, she totally did a 180. Everytime I call her to ask her things, she is just a total witch. Major attitude. I don't know if it's me because I am pregnant and my hormones are getting the best of me, or if that's just how businesses are. Anyway, I am tired of dealing with her. I will be so glad when this wedding is over!!!

Some Family Bonding

Last night, we bonded as a family for the first time. I bought a three disc CD at Kohls that has classical baby songs. Well, last night I was playing it for the baby. I hooked up the headphones into my laptop and put the headphones on my stomach. Jeremy came home and I mentioned to him that I wanted one of those CD players that has two headphone hookups so that I can listen with the baby and he told me that he had a spliter. Well, I had extra headphones that went with my MP3 Player, so I hooked it up and I was able to listen to the CD with the baby. Well, the headphones I was using were actually earphones so I gave one ear to Jeremy and we sat there in bed for a good hour just listening to the music with the baby. I really felt a connection and it was really nice that Jeremy wanted to be a part of it.

Two more weeks left till the wedding. I am so excited. I feel like these last couple weeks are coming up SLOW. When we first got engaged, people would tell me that I would be really stressed out the last couple of weeks and they are right. I'm stressed because I want everything to go right. I'm constantly calling my procrastinating father and brother to get their tux fixed and trying to get everything ready when my family comes. Lately, I haven't been eating or even hungry because I'm constantly thinking and stressing. Well, I'm not stressing to the point where I am about to pull my hair out, but very anxious and worried. I just can't wait till the day is here and all my hard work has paid off. I've been waiting a long time for this.

Well, I'm going to relax now and play some music for the baby. Till next time...

Madame Zaritska's Prediction

Okay, so I got this off of a pregnancy message board from pregnancyweekly.com. There is a website, sheknows.com, where this Madamn Zaritska can predict what it would be like outside when you deliver and what your baby will look like. This is only for fun. I don't really believe in this. Besides, only God has the power to decide. Here goes...

The day you deliver, outside will be rainy. Your baby will arrive in the evening.
After a labor lasting approximately 4 hours, your child, a girl, will be born. Your baby will weigh about 8 pounds, 10 ounces, and will be 18 inches long. This child will have dark brown eyes and be completely bald.

Here is my assessment of this prediction. It could be rainy since I will deliver in February. I pray my labor only lasts 4 hours. It could be a girl since that is what everyone is saying. The baby can weigh 8 lbs because Jeremy weighed that much when he was born. This child can definitely have dark brown eyes because I have dark brown eyes and Jeremy has blue. Therefore, mine is dominant. I PRAY that our child is not completely bald. I have never seen a baby girl born without hair. I've seen boys born without hair, but never a girl.

Anyway, like I said, this is just for fun. I'm not going to rely on this, but it will be fun to see if this is actually true once the baby is here. Thought I'd share this with all of you. Enjoy!

Pregnancy Pictures

This morning, Jeremy suggested that since I am now 3.5 months pregnant, we should start taking montly pictures of my belly. I am not ready to because it is still mostly 80% fat and only 20% baby. I think once I hit the 4 month mark, I will be ready to expose my fat belly and start taking pictures. I know it might seem like I am very self-conscious of my weight, and yes I am. I have been chubby my entire life and I've had to deal with critisms from family, so weight is a sensitive topic for me. I lost 20 lbs in high school and now that I am getting big again (whether I am pregnant or not), it still makes me feel self-conscious. But once I start getting bigger and look more pregnant, I will feel more comfortable with taking pictures of my exposed belly.

I took the day off from work today. I woke up with a painful migraine. I've never had bad headaches before I became pregnant. Tylenol doesn't seem strong enough for me, but I am afraid to take anything else, even something the doctor prescribes. I guess I'll just ride it out.

I have to clean the house today. I hate cleaning, but I want our house to look nice for the bridal shower. I don't want people to think we live like pigs. I've also got some homework to do. We only have two more weeks left of this term and then our second term starts. During my second term, I have classes Mondays and Tuesdays. That works out great because when we take a week off for our honeymoon, I'll only be missing one day of class because on Labor Day, we don't have class.

Anyway, let me stop procrastinating and get up and do something.

Jeremy's First

Ever since I became pregnant, Jeremy was unable to attend any of my appointments. He missed the first ultrasound, where I got to see its little heart fluttering. He missed my second appointment where I got to listen to the heartbeat. I am a little disappointed that he missed the first few important appointments, but we hit an unexpected bump in our lives and he had to do what he had to do to get us back on our feet. So I decided to rent a heart doppler from babybeat.com. Jeremy complained saying it was a waste of money, but when he heard the heartbeat for the first time yesterday, he thought it was the most amazing sound and he couldn't stop smiling.

A lot of things have changed for our wedding. The preacher, who is suppose to do the ceremony, backed out last minute saying him and his wife want to go out of town for Labor Day weekend and if it was okay with us if his associate, Rita, perform the ceremony. We said yes...I mean, what can we say. Jeremy is a little upset because he thinks the "man" is suppose to perform that duty...what a pig...LOL. I personally am delighted about it because he was getting on my nerves. He kept telling us what we could and couldn't do and I was getting so annoyed of him. I've switched out one of my bridesmaids and got an additional one. My two, VERY APPRECIATED, CAN DEPEND ON LAST MINUTE, sister-in-laws decided to be in our wedding. The reason I wanted one more additional bridesmaid was because I want my brother in the wedding as a groomsman and I needed a woman for him. But everything else is coming along great. We've sent out the invitations and have started receiving RSVPs.

I've started working out again. Nothing vigorous. Just some light walking and weight lifting. My arms are getting so huge and I don't want bulging arms for the wedding. I am wearing a strapless, so I want my arms to look at least toned since everywhere else will look HUGE. I'm even starting to get dimples on my legs because I am getting weight. I hate mirrors...LOL.

I've been having more energy ever since I've entered my second trimester. I even get to work early now, like I used to. I still get nauseous here and there, but doing much better. I've got a lot of baby things like swings and exersaucers from a friend of mine whose son just turned a year old, so our nursery is filled with a few things. I'm excited about decorating our nursery. I think we will wait until we find out the sex.

Well, that's it from me for now. Jeremy's aunts are throwing me a bridal shower this Saturday, so I guess I'll post with some presents!

13 Weeks 2 Days

So today was my third appointment with the doctor. I am officially into my second trimester. I seem to have more energy, but am still a little nauseous. Everything went fine. They drew blood from me and then I got to hear the heartbeat. It was beating at 160 bpm. So according to the wives tale, I should be having a girl, but we'll see! It took them a little while to find the heartbeat because the baby is still so small, but when they found it, the sound was amazing. I loved it so much that I might actually rent one of those dopplers off the internet.

I have another appointment on August 30. It will be with a midwife because my doctor will be out of town. My next appointment with the doctor will be on September 29. I will be 21 weeks then, so we will be able to find out the sex then. We will start working on the nursery after we find out the sex. A friend of mine is a painter and she wants to do a mural for me. But I don't know what I want the theme to be yet. I was thinking Precious Moments, but that seems to be more expensive than other themes.

I am getting excited about the wedding. It is coming up fast. Jeremy and I decided to go down to Pompano Beach, FL for a week. My co-workers got together and got us a room at Chateau Elan that includes dinner, breakfast and a massage for two on the night of our wedding, so we will be spending a night up there and then driving down to Pompano Beach. It's about a ten hour drive, but tickets are so expensive right now that it's worth the drive. Besides, we both love road trips.

An answer to Kari's question...our wedding is on September 3. I've been waiting a long time for this moment, so I am very anxious. It's going to be the happiest day of our lives. Well, besides the birth of our baby it (despite what Taylor is saying...haha).

Surprisingly, Jeremy really wants a girl. I too want a girl, but whatever it is, I'll be equally happy.

Well, that's it for now.

Back to Reality

I'm back! Actually, I've been back. I came home last Thursday around 2 in the morning. Some advice...NEVER FLY WITH AMERICAN AIRLINES! I had a two hour delay, then we had to fly over Rome, GA for an hour, then when we finally landed, we had to wait another half hour because there was construction being done around the gate we were suppose to get off at. Supposedly, Hartsfield Airport was extremely busy that night and they had no room for planes to land on, but everyone else seemed to have landed just fine. The only planes that were held up were American. Never again!

Anyway, home was fun. I had a blast! I always hate leaving because I get so pampered when I see my parents. They do not get to see me often, so when they do, they like to spoil me. It was great seeing my friends, but sucked that I couldn't drink with them everytime we went out to the bars (don't worry, every restaurant and bar is smoke-free up in CT)...LOL.

Wedding stuff is all done now. We got our invitations printed, thanks to Taylor, and sent out and we've got our wedding bands. My dress is being altered and I ordered all the attendant gifts and my jewelry that I am going to wear for the wedding. We met with Publix and got our cake ordered and our flowers are paid for. The only thing I have left to do is somehow get my veil onto the tiara I am borrowing from a friend. I have my four main things...something new (dress), something old (grandmother's necklace), something blue (garter), and something borrowed (tiara). The only problem with the necklace is I won't be able to wear it. I was thinking about tucking it inside my bra. Any suggestions?

We're meeting with the restaurant tomorrow night and the preacher Wednesday night for our pre-marital counseling and our last minute details. Then all we have to do is wait for the big day! I am soooo excited. Jeremy still wants to go on a honeymoon and even though I hate to go pregnant, I would like to spend some time alone as husband and wife. We might go on a cruise, but I don't know how well I'll do.

Anyway, thought I'd keep everyone updated on the wedding. I am getting huge! My belly is getting round, but I don't look pregnant when I have my wedding dress on, which is a good thing. The top part is made out of cardboard, I think, and the bottom part is flared and that is important because only my bottom stomach is getting rounder. I do have to say though, that even though I am excited about being pregnant, I do feel fat and unattractive. Sometimes I get depressed. I don't know if that's normal. I mean I am so happy I am pregnant and that we are going to have a baby, but my self-esteem has gone down a lot. I just feel so huge and ugly. Hope that is normal and that it will go away.

Anyway, happy Monday!